ANOTHER GREAT DAY ON THE NEW PROGRAM
Well, today marks the second day in a row that I have been a good girl. I am back on track and I am not looking back again. I am moving forward. I have five more days until weigh in, and I am hoping for something better than I saw on the scale the other day.
I have Diana to thank for this new surge in my routine. She told me yesterday, if I started all over again in the morning, I would be able to take some weight off by weigh in day. I am determined to do that. I don't remember if I mentioned that I got on the scale the other day to shock myself into stopping this ridiculous behavior of cheating because it's NOT OK. I was up three pounds from last weigh in. I actually thought to myself, well that isn't too bad. it could have been a lot worse. Then I realized that I am nearly two weeks in to cycle three and I should have lost at least half of what I lost last cycle, so that was bad.
I believe those three pounds are already gone. I am hoping I can get some more off by the deadline. I have been a good girl, and I want to see some kind of reward for it. Even if just a token, after all I have been through this cycle. I still have emotional struggles I am working my way through, but I am not doing it with food this time. I have been going to bed with hunger pains.
My friend Dawn asked me what was it that made me say F*** It! After being so good for so long, and I told her I actually could not stand the pain. I feel like I am in physical pain with my stomach gnawing at me and growling an burning and that evil whisperer talking in my ear. I just couldn't take it anymore, and I finally said to myself, just do it and get it over with so you can refocus. The problem with that is that once you have broken that barrier, once you have fallen off that proverbial wagon, its hard to reseal it or jump back on and act like nothing happened.
It makes it easier for you to talk yourself into doing it again. You did it once and it didn't hurt you that much. One small amount won't matter. Just eat it and move on! Well, I am not falling for those tricks again (I hope - God Willing, I will be alright). I do realize that I am human and therefore subject to imperfections and weaknesses, that is why I have to just keep asking God to stay with me and provide me with strength to prevail. My pleas actually worked. God is standing strong with me again. I got some words of wisdom from a friend named Kristi, and they meant a lot to me and really got me plugged back in too.
THANK YOU GOD!
Today I had a play date with my friend Dawn and her family. We all went to Chuck E Cheeses. That's our favorite place to let the kids run crazy and have a good time, while we visit, and yes..... eat. I still ate, but this time I only ate salad. I had two plates for lunch and when we were still there over an hour later I had another plate, which became my dinner by default. I wasn't hungry after that when I got home, and I was so tired I went to bed early. So I didn't have the usual torturous hunger pangs last night.
TODAY'S STATS
Green tea = 2; Water = 3 (yikes that hurts); Probiotics = 2 yogurts; Fruits = 2 apple and grapefruit; Protein = boiled eggs; Veggies = iceberg lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers, carrots, red cabbage; Friendly fats = 0; Salad Dressing that was not fat free = 5 Tbs. yikes! Cheese = 2 tsp.
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