Well Hello Dere!
Just checking in to update you for a minute. I wanted to let you know that since my last weigh in on April 27, 2011, I am down 2 more pounds. I have not taken inches yet. I though I would wait for at least 17 days to go by first.
I am still taking the lean spa. I am noticing that it works well since I have not been following the 17 day diet this past week or so. However, I must caution you as to two things I discovered. The trial was free, but three days after I got it and was trying it to see if it worked (and had not even noticed any changes or differences yet) they automatically charged my debit card $79.95! I didn't notice anywhere that I gave permission for that - I cancelled the order because I did not know if the stuff even worked yet! and I did not consent to them removing the money from my account. Secondly, I went online to try to reorder some because I now know its working and I like it, but their website says they are NOT taking any more orders because they are sold out - they will only be filling existing customer orders. I don't know how long that is going to go on or if its indefinite, but just be aware if you are thinking about giving it a try. Dang! Now I have to see if I can do some fancy talking to get them to order based on my cancelled order. It's what we in the law like to call a loop hole and I am good at finding them. We'll see how it goes.
Take care. . . God Bless
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
April 27, 2011 - Still in the Struggle
Hello again.
I know it's been a while since I blogged, and that, along with other things, needs to change. I have sort of drifted on the diet plan for a moment. I have been doing some thinking and soul searching, and I have decided that maybe doctor Moreno is right! Perhaps I should have gone onto cycle three and then back to cycle one because I have gotten so sick of looking at and eating the same food, I cannot even force myself to buy all of those vegetables I was eating with so much gusto only 2 months ago.
I was worried that I would like eating all of the new items so much that I would fall back into my old eating habits, but instead I have been feeling extraordinarily frustrated with the limited choices in foods I have and frankly, I am sick of eating all the same things - all the time.
I am taking a week off of the diet - still watching what I eat, drinking plenty of water and eating my probiotics. No lemon water for the duration, and I am expanding my food base, but watching portion controls. I actually have stopped eating huge plates of vegetables with my meals,and have gotten them down to normal portions. I have been eating only one chicken breast and a regular portions of veggies for meals, instead of the 2 breasts and tons of veggies I started with. Hmmm. I wonder how much of that has to do with being sick of it? What ever it is, I get full and feel satisfied. I think in the beginning, I like so many people, thought I wasn't going to get enough to eat and didn't want to be hungry. However, that changed as I saw I could have as much veggies as I wanted.
Bottom line is, cycle four ended the other day with me down one pound - back to my weight at the end of cycle two (because I had gained one pound after cycle three, but lost inches). I have lost more inches, although I am not sure how many for this cycle because my computer burned out and my stats were on there. However, I do have my beginning measurements (I wrote those on paper until I put them in a chart on my computer), and I have lost more than 13 3/4" - not including my leg measurements because I did not take them at my first measure - so I do not know how much they went down overall.
I am feeling pretty good. I weighed myself this morning and I have lost another 4 pounds = that put me under another benchmark goal I have been striving to get under!!! Yippee! I am so amazed because I have not been strictly following the diet plan - but I am aware of my eating habits more than usual. Wow! Perhaps this old dog is learning new tricks after all.
I have been rutting around in the garage, opening up all my boxes stored there, trying to condense the junk and store the memories better. I found a few helpful books. I can tell just how long I have been trying to control my weight by all of the different books (Dr. Phil, Biggest Loser, Fat Calories, Why I am fat, 6 week body make over, etc.) and equipment I found out there (resistant bands, exercise balls, videos, etc.). I am sure all of you who are in this struggle know what I mean. I even found a bunch of bottles of pills (candida cleanse, colon cleanse, fat burning, vitamins, fish oil, etc.) Wow! I really have been at this thing for a lifetime. I am still hoping to beat it this time. I know I will always have to be aware of what I eat, and mix that with some exercise, but I hope to lose this weight and only have to worry about not putting it back on again - instead of worrying about how to lose it all over again - year after year.
I decided to bring in some of those video workouts and exercise paraphernalia to see if I can't put them to some good use, since they've just been sitting around wasting away.
I don't know if anyone is even still following me since I haven't been dedicated to writing every day. I must do better. I know I do better when I write it all down and put it out there for the universe to know what I have been up to. Honestly though, I don't want to tell you all (or admit to myself) all of the things I have enjoyed in the past few days - it's amazing that I am losing instead of gaining. Well, if I am being honest, and I am - I have been trying things here and there that I want to taste, but I have not been gorging on them. A simple bite or two usually does the trick. Also, those things do not taste as good as I thought they would, and I am unsure if its because I don't eat sugar things anymore or because I feel guilty for eating them when I don't need them.
On a brighter note, I believe I have my issues worked out with my loved one. That feels like a huge relief and burden off my shoulders. It is disappointing that I could not just be enough for myself through that tragedy. I am hoping to do better in that area. I am learning to love me afterall. I do deserve my love. I am worthy! I am wonderful. I love you Rebecca! Smooches. (Is that going too far? NO! I would kiss anyone else I love! so, smooches!
I still need to go back and do the exercises from that psychiatrist (blog doc), but I have implemented one of her suggestions for a happier, healthier lifestyle - that is to schedule more activities in my life that don't revolve around food. So, last weekend I found out Prince was in town - and my friend Di and I went! AMAZING! I have only been to one concert in my entire life and it was Prince in 1984! So, my second concert, Prince 2011! He is still a musical genius! Still looks and sounds great. He did a tribute to Michael Jackson which was awesome. Alicia Keys sang "How come you don't call me anymore?" with him. Cuba Gooding Jr. danced on the stage! Like I said - AMAZING! Plus, I got some friends together to start a bowling team and we begin bowling on May 12 once a week for ten weeks! I am so excited about that. I am looking around for other things, but this is a start. I have to say that it feels good to find things to do that do not revolve around food. I sat and thought about that for a while and for the last umpteen years, everything I planned had to do with where or what we were going to eat. It has rarely ever been a plan for fun and activity first. I actually like this new way of doing things. I feel like I am really living again instead of just sitting around getting bigger and more depressed. I hope you all are feeling what I am saying. I have rejoined the living and am carving out a life I want to live instead of letting my life live me.
Have a great day everyone!! (if anyone is still out there!) I hope that you are getting everything you need to live the life you want.
I know it's been a while since I blogged, and that, along with other things, needs to change. I have sort of drifted on the diet plan for a moment. I have been doing some thinking and soul searching, and I have decided that maybe doctor Moreno is right! Perhaps I should have gone onto cycle three and then back to cycle one because I have gotten so sick of looking at and eating the same food, I cannot even force myself to buy all of those vegetables I was eating with so much gusto only 2 months ago.
I was worried that I would like eating all of the new items so much that I would fall back into my old eating habits, but instead I have been feeling extraordinarily frustrated with the limited choices in foods I have and frankly, I am sick of eating all the same things - all the time.
I am taking a week off of the diet - still watching what I eat, drinking plenty of water and eating my probiotics. No lemon water for the duration, and I am expanding my food base, but watching portion controls. I actually have stopped eating huge plates of vegetables with my meals,and have gotten them down to normal portions. I have been eating only one chicken breast and a regular portions of veggies for meals, instead of the 2 breasts and tons of veggies I started with. Hmmm. I wonder how much of that has to do with being sick of it? What ever it is, I get full and feel satisfied. I think in the beginning, I like so many people, thought I wasn't going to get enough to eat and didn't want to be hungry. However, that changed as I saw I could have as much veggies as I wanted.
Bottom line is, cycle four ended the other day with me down one pound - back to my weight at the end of cycle two (because I had gained one pound after cycle three, but lost inches). I have lost more inches, although I am not sure how many for this cycle because my computer burned out and my stats were on there. However, I do have my beginning measurements (I wrote those on paper until I put them in a chart on my computer), and I have lost more than 13 3/4" - not including my leg measurements because I did not take them at my first measure - so I do not know how much they went down overall.
I am feeling pretty good. I weighed myself this morning and I have lost another 4 pounds = that put me under another benchmark goal I have been striving to get under!!! Yippee! I am so amazed because I have not been strictly following the diet plan - but I am aware of my eating habits more than usual. Wow! Perhaps this old dog is learning new tricks after all.
I have been rutting around in the garage, opening up all my boxes stored there, trying to condense the junk and store the memories better. I found a few helpful books. I can tell just how long I have been trying to control my weight by all of the different books (Dr. Phil, Biggest Loser, Fat Calories, Why I am fat, 6 week body make over, etc.) and equipment I found out there (resistant bands, exercise balls, videos, etc.). I am sure all of you who are in this struggle know what I mean. I even found a bunch of bottles of pills (candida cleanse, colon cleanse, fat burning, vitamins, fish oil, etc.) Wow! I really have been at this thing for a lifetime. I am still hoping to beat it this time. I know I will always have to be aware of what I eat, and mix that with some exercise, but I hope to lose this weight and only have to worry about not putting it back on again - instead of worrying about how to lose it all over again - year after year.
I decided to bring in some of those video workouts and exercise paraphernalia to see if I can't put them to some good use, since they've just been sitting around wasting away.
I don't know if anyone is even still following me since I haven't been dedicated to writing every day. I must do better. I know I do better when I write it all down and put it out there for the universe to know what I have been up to. Honestly though, I don't want to tell you all (or admit to myself) all of the things I have enjoyed in the past few days - it's amazing that I am losing instead of gaining. Well, if I am being honest, and I am - I have been trying things here and there that I want to taste, but I have not been gorging on them. A simple bite or two usually does the trick. Also, those things do not taste as good as I thought they would, and I am unsure if its because I don't eat sugar things anymore or because I feel guilty for eating them when I don't need them.
On a brighter note, I believe I have my issues worked out with my loved one. That feels like a huge relief and burden off my shoulders. It is disappointing that I could not just be enough for myself through that tragedy. I am hoping to do better in that area. I am learning to love me afterall. I do deserve my love. I am worthy! I am wonderful. I love you Rebecca! Smooches. (Is that going too far? NO! I would kiss anyone else I love! so, smooches!
I still need to go back and do the exercises from that psychiatrist (blog doc), but I have implemented one of her suggestions for a happier, healthier lifestyle - that is to schedule more activities in my life that don't revolve around food. So, last weekend I found out Prince was in town - and my friend Di and I went! AMAZING! I have only been to one concert in my entire life and it was Prince in 1984! So, my second concert, Prince 2011! He is still a musical genius! Still looks and sounds great. He did a tribute to Michael Jackson which was awesome. Alicia Keys sang "How come you don't call me anymore?" with him. Cuba Gooding Jr. danced on the stage! Like I said - AMAZING! Plus, I got some friends together to start a bowling team and we begin bowling on May 12 once a week for ten weeks! I am so excited about that. I am looking around for other things, but this is a start. I have to say that it feels good to find things to do that do not revolve around food. I sat and thought about that for a while and for the last umpteen years, everything I planned had to do with where or what we were going to eat. It has rarely ever been a plan for fun and activity first. I actually like this new way of doing things. I feel like I am really living again instead of just sitting around getting bigger and more depressed. I hope you all are feeling what I am saying. I have rejoined the living and am carving out a life I want to live instead of letting my life live me.
Have a great day everyone!! (if anyone is still out there!) I hope that you are getting everything you need to live the life you want.
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Day Twelve - Cycle Four (Day 63) Friday, April 15, 2011
DISASTER DAY
There is no easy way to say this or make myself feel better about it, so I am just going to throw it out to the universe - I have failed once again.
I gave into temptation. I was weak and threw all of my hard work away. I get so tired of letting myself down. I honestly don't know why I keep doing this. I received a blog in my email yesterday from some oband psychiatrist and I loved everything she had t say. I read all of her past blogs that I had not received. I even signed up for her new ones to come to me by email. I will get the site for anyone else who is interested. She breaks down why fat people keep failing at diets and she gives exercises and assignments for us to do so that we can prepare ourselves not to sabotage ourselves. I am going to read them again and do the exercises - this is like having my therapist on board again - only better. I am truly hoping for that all important break through that will help me replace emotional eating with other activities and things. The doctor talks about obesity and depression and says you don't just get better without just forcing yourself to do the things you don't want to do. I have started that process, but I need more guidance to finish it. Thank you God for sending me that random email from a knowledgeable stranger!
There is no easy way to say this or make myself feel better about it, so I am just going to throw it out to the universe - I have failed once again.
I gave into temptation. I was weak and threw all of my hard work away. I get so tired of letting myself down. I honestly don't know why I keep doing this. I received a blog in my email yesterday from some oband psychiatrist and I loved everything she had t say. I read all of her past blogs that I had not received. I even signed up for her new ones to come to me by email. I will get the site for anyone else who is interested. She breaks down why fat people keep failing at diets and she gives exercises and assignments for us to do so that we can prepare ourselves not to sabotage ourselves. I am going to read them again and do the exercises - this is like having my therapist on board again - only better. I am truly hoping for that all important break through that will help me replace emotional eating with other activities and things. The doctor talks about obesity and depression and says you don't just get better without just forcing yourself to do the things you don't want to do. I have started that process, but I need more guidance to finish it. Thank you God for sending me that random email from a knowledgeable stranger!
Day Eleven - Cycle Four (Day 62) Thursda, April 14, 2011
JUST ANOTHER DAY OF STRUGGLE AND REGRETS
Today was really hard to stick with this program. I had to keep talking myself out o eating the wrong things, and when I ran out of excuses to do that, I tried to talk Diana into taking us to a burger joint to just indulge! Thankfully (and I mean that DI) she remained strong and refused to allow me to sabotage myself and her. We went to El Pollo Loco and had chicken breast on tortillas with rice and beans. I had 2 at first and later 2 more, Di could only eat one. It was satisfying and fairly tasty. Thanks again Di. I needed that!
TODAY'S STATS
Green Tea = 3; Water = 7; Fruit = 1 orange; Probiotics = 2 yogurts; Proteins = turkey, rotisserie chicken; Vegetables = iceberg lettuce, carrots, red cabbage; Friendly Fats = 0; Other = rice and pinto beans, 4 small flour tortillas
Today was really hard to stick with this program. I had to keep talking myself out o eating the wrong things, and when I ran out of excuses to do that, I tried to talk Diana into taking us to a burger joint to just indulge! Thankfully (and I mean that DI) she remained strong and refused to allow me to sabotage myself and her. We went to El Pollo Loco and had chicken breast on tortillas with rice and beans. I had 2 at first and later 2 more, Di could only eat one. It was satisfying and fairly tasty. Thanks again Di. I needed that!
TODAY'S STATS
Green Tea = 3; Water = 7; Fruit = 1 orange; Probiotics = 2 yogurts; Proteins = turkey, rotisserie chicken; Vegetables = iceberg lettuce, carrots, red cabbage; Friendly Fats = 0; Other = rice and pinto beans, 4 small flour tortillas
Day Ten - Cycle Four (Day 61) Wednesday, April 12, 2011
THE GLAMOUR OF THIS EATING PROGRAM IS WEARING OFF
It is getting harder and harder to justify to myself why I should eat another salad or another piece of grilled chicken with vegetables. The eagerness and excitement have left the building and I feel stuck with the same choice of foods every day. I haven't put in any effort to find new recipes - other than asking others for them, but I haven't received any. I feel hugely disappointed that not only did I not lose any weight last weigh in, but I gained a pound. I know it could have been worse, but with the amount of weight that I have to lose, I should not be at a plateau already. This weight should be pouring ff of me for at least another 70 pounds before the really hard work begins! This is making it so much harder to convince myself to continue.
This is why I have failed so many times before, and I am sure why others have too. There just isn't enough gratification or reward for ALL of the HARD work.
It is getting harder and harder to justify to myself why I should eat another salad or another piece of grilled chicken with vegetables. The eagerness and excitement have left the building and I feel stuck with the same choice of foods every day. I haven't put in any effort to find new recipes - other than asking others for them, but I haven't received any. I feel hugely disappointed that not only did I not lose any weight last weigh in, but I gained a pound. I know it could have been worse, but with the amount of weight that I have to lose, I should not be at a plateau already. This weight should be pouring ff of me for at least another 70 pounds before the really hard work begins! This is making it so much harder to convince myself to continue.
This is why I have failed so many times before, and I am sure why others have too. There just isn't enough gratification or reward for ALL of the HARD work.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Day Nine - Cycle Four (Day 60) Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Weird Day
I am sick again, so I made plans for someone to pick up the little bit after a minimum day of school. However, she hurt herself at the playground and I got a call telling me to get up there immediately that she was saying she couldn't move and they were getting the wheelchair.
I am sick again, so I made plans for someone to pick up the little bit after a minimum day of school. However, she hurt herself at the playground and I got a call telling me to get up there immediately that she was saying she couldn't move and they were getting the wheelchair.
Day Eight - Cycle Four (Day 59) Monday, April 11, 2011
Just another ordinary day that I am thankful to have! I especially like that I had a successful day. I woke up sick today. Actually, I didn't get much sleep last night due to a croupy cough and runny nose. I have had a splitting headache all day, but still glad to be here and making progress on my weight loss goal.
Since I got so little sleep last night, I slept this morning, so I got up late. I had a yogurt and some strawberries. For lunch I had a pastrami sandwich and green beans with onions and mushrooms. I drank 6 waters throughout the day. I ordered and received a cleansing system that is supposed to be recommended by Dr. Oz, so I am taking those pills to cleanse myself. I hope it works to take some pounds off. The channel six news people conducted their own experiment to see if it works and the health lady lost like 25 pounds in a month, so ... every little thing I can do to help me that is healthy, I will try. Did I mention its a free trial - just pay shipping. It's called lean spa.
Since I got so little sleep last night, I slept this morning, so I got up late. I had a yogurt and some strawberries. For lunch I had a pastrami sandwich and green beans with onions and mushrooms. I drank 6 waters throughout the day. I ordered and received a cleansing system that is supposed to be recommended by Dr. Oz, so I am taking those pills to cleanse myself. I hope it works to take some pounds off. The channel six news people conducted their own experiment to see if it works and the health lady lost like 25 pounds in a month, so ... every little thing I can do to help me that is healthy, I will try. Did I mention its a free trial - just pay shipping. It's called lean spa.
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