Day Seven - Cycle Three (Day 41) Thursday

TRYING TO BE GOOD AFTER A COUPLE OF DAYS AWAY FROM HOME

     My first day home after having room service and long days.  I started it with lemon water, green tea, yogurt, and an apple.
    Met Dawn at Olive Garden for lunch - an eye opening experience.  It's our favorite restaurant and I was amazed at just how little is available to eat with calories under 300 for the meal.  There was actually only ONE offering that was 260 calories.  It was their apricot citrus chicken breast with asparagus and broccoli.  I ordered that and ate their salad too.  I asked how many calories were in one bread stick because I was seriously contemplating have just one - but when the waiter came back and told me they had 180 calories in one stick!  I passed!  What!!???  Yikes was I seriously eating wrong and badly.  I asked them to put the apricot citrus sauce on the side to see if I like it and to control the portion.  I didn't like it and didn't eat it.  
     Today was the hardest day yet.  My eye has started twitching, and some symptoms of depression are trying to creep back in.  i have insomnia again, and anxiety from a culmination of my loved ones careless words, my therapist closing my case, and other personal things that I have been struggling with and fighting my way through the red tape on.
      I made grilled chicken breast with steamed broccoli and carrots for dinner. Felt hungry after eating lunch and dinner.  So, I had an extra yogurt to try and soothe some of the cravings and hunger after lunch and dinner for a total of 3 today!.
     Was sore and tired from two days of walking around every where - which by the way, was another reason I figured the fajitas would be alright because I haven't had so much exercise in years!
     I basically chilled at home and caught up on some things left neglected for a few days - housework and laundry being at the top of the list.
  Wondering how I am going to beat these cravings and hunger pangs.  I sat up watching movies until 3 am and suffered with my stomach churning and growling and basically just telling me it is miserable and wants to eat.  I was able to get through it without eating anything.  Another day down.....

TODAY'S STATS

     Green Tea = 2; Water = 3; Probiotics = 3 yogurts; Fruit = 1 apple; Proteins = grilled chicken breasts; Veggies = broccoli, asparagus, carrots, tomatoes,; Friendly Fats = 1 Tbs Olive Oil.